Greeting from a Farm shop Café in Warwickshire.
I have found myself with 30 minutes spare before the school run and as such, I have stopped here for the toilet and another black coffee.
Brain Fog
I have had brain fog for some time now - not permanently of course, but every other day I have found myself unable to focus. It is so frustrating. Today, I have decided to start back on a diet plan which sees me increase my water intake (2-3 litres a day) and enjoy 4 shakes a day. Do not get me wrong, I am aware that this kind of diet is not sustainable, I know because I used to be a consultant for the diet company! That said, it is really great at getting me to a point where I can manage my food better. For that reason, I intend to get a couple of weeks done and review my progress then.
Oh yes, the Brain Fog - I feel focussed and alert today. Long may it last.
Mum update
Over the past few days, my dear old Mum has lost her ability to walk and as such has been confined to her bed. She is now on oral morphine to help her pain and discomfort as her legs and back are quite sore. Sometimes she knows I am there, but it is now more common for her not to realise I am by her side. It is truly heart-breaking to watch her slip away so slowly. I am going to miss my Mum…..
As I have mentioned before, the waiting for death is incredibly hard. Even as I write that, I feel guilt beyond words - why should I be talking about myself when my Mum is slipping away in front of me? I suppose, as there is nothing more I can do for my Mum, other than make sure she is comfortable on her last journey, I only have my own feelings to think about. Have I said that I am going to miss my Mum…….
Thank you for reading.
Take care of yourself and those you love….
Lee
Sending strength, Lee. It must be so hard.